Gahhh...I suck at life with this thing. Hahaha...
Life, in general, has been pretty good lately.
This weekend was lots of fun. Hung out with some old friends and made some new ones, which is always fantastic.
I have finished watching the first 5 seasons of The Office. Which is a pretty funny show. I used to think it was dumb, but now it makes me smile and giggle. Lol.
Workin' some 4 jobs at the moment. Kinda crazy.
This week and next week are all I have left to endure of the boys I watch. Thank the LORD!
Wednesday I end one house sitting job. And friday I end the other.
And my overnight nannying will last a bit longer and then I'll have a 6 week vacation. Which kinda sucks cause no money, but I will be in 2 crazy hard summer school classes so the break from work will be much needed.
I'm bidding on some stuff on eBay. Haven't done that for awhile. Forgot how fun it is. Haha.
I'm buying a camera that I already have. Same. Exact. One.
Why might I be doing that?
Well, because technology and everything else hates me and likes to let me destroy it. So I end up having to buy new technological things all the time. I've had to buy new phones. A brand new MacBook. And now, a brand new camera. But what is fantastic about this camera is that I'm saving about 150 bucks! Saweeet!!
Life is good, cause God is good.
And when life is bad, God is still good.
: )
5.31.2010
5.23.2010
God is so faithful.
Again God continues to prove that He is faithful and works everything out in His timing...which is always perfect.
The saying that "Good conversations always happen after midnight" is so true.
Got a crazy random text around midnight last night, and that conversation ended up lasting till almost 4 this morning. A lot of epiphanies through that conversation. A lot of resolutions and apologies. And a lot of heart break for the things left unsaid.
But God is still faithful.
In my life, though friendships may come and go, the never truly go. They are in my heart and in my memories forever. They help me to grow as a person and in my faith. And most of that time you can never see any of that growth while you are still wrapped up in the situation or even the friendship as a whole. I am so thankful that God reveals our growth to us. Without knowing and seeing how far I've come with the help of God, my faith probably wouldn't be what it is today.
I am so thankful that God created us to be in unity with others. I can not fathom life without family or friendships. I have this innate need to be around people. Not every second of every day, but I could never be secluded for a long period of time.
Today, in my quite time, it was about loneliness. Now, i'm not lonely, so I kinda just whipped through it. But as I reflected on it, it was awesome because it was just showing me how wonderfully God created the human race. To give us these innermost thoughts and feelings of needing others. The longing he gives us to be in community with the body. And I just felt really blessed to know that my God knows my basic needs because he created them, and he is supplying me with more than enough of every need in my life. Even though at times my attitude towards it is, "more, more, more", God has given me the perfect amount.
God is good. All the time, God is good.
The saying that "Good conversations always happen after midnight" is so true.
Got a crazy random text around midnight last night, and that conversation ended up lasting till almost 4 this morning. A lot of epiphanies through that conversation. A lot of resolutions and apologies. And a lot of heart break for the things left unsaid.
But God is still faithful.
In my life, though friendships may come and go, the never truly go. They are in my heart and in my memories forever. They help me to grow as a person and in my faith. And most of that time you can never see any of that growth while you are still wrapped up in the situation or even the friendship as a whole. I am so thankful that God reveals our growth to us. Without knowing and seeing how far I've come with the help of God, my faith probably wouldn't be what it is today.
I am so thankful that God created us to be in unity with others. I can not fathom life without family or friendships. I have this innate need to be around people. Not every second of every day, but I could never be secluded for a long period of time.
Today, in my quite time, it was about loneliness. Now, i'm not lonely, so I kinda just whipped through it. But as I reflected on it, it was awesome because it was just showing me how wonderfully God created the human race. To give us these innermost thoughts and feelings of needing others. The longing he gives us to be in community with the body. And I just felt really blessed to know that my God knows my basic needs because he created them, and he is supplying me with more than enough of every need in my life. Even though at times my attitude towards it is, "more, more, more", God has given me the perfect amount.
God is good. All the time, God is good.
5.18.2010
Tryin' to get back into the groove of this...
I'm a huge processor when it comes to life. To just sit and reflect and jot down my feelings and thoughts really helps me to stay sane.
And so for today...things have come to somewhat of an end, or are in the process of ending.
Today was the last day of this semester. And it was also the beginning of the last week that I'll be in the house with the boys that I watch.
Kind of a weird feeling.
I've seem to have grown accustomed to change and endings and beginnings. But something about this ending just isn't sitting right with me. I think it's because I'm not trusting in God to take care of me. As I loose one job, and partially another one for awhile, I am nervous as to how I'm going to survive. And as I dive into summer school soon I am nervous as to how I will do. I am afraid that with all of the busyness, sort of, this summer that I'm going to loose touch with a new friend and quite possibly some old ones. This summer just seems like it's not starting off on the right foot.
I've had such amazing summers since I left high school that I feel like I have unrealistic expectations of what this summer should be like. I'm afraid that i'm going to be disappointed. But I know that I shouldn't be because God has a perfect summer for me in mind, whether or not it's what I think it should be.
Maybe this summer I need to focus on the little things. The past few summers have had a lot of big things in them to keep me entertained and happy. But maybe this summer wont be like that. It'll be all the little things this summer that truly make it count.
I just wish that I could get this, well...almost...sadness that summer is here, out of my mind.
I think i'm looking forward too much to the fall that i'm wishing away my summer. That I so badly want some things to happen that i'm willing to skip over other things just so that it might happen. And that's not a good way to start the next few months.
I need to learn to be content, but not at the same time.
Maybe, some good old Jesus time will help me to change my attitude toward this all.
Only through Christ can I do this.
And so for today...things have come to somewhat of an end, or are in the process of ending.
Today was the last day of this semester. And it was also the beginning of the last week that I'll be in the house with the boys that I watch.
Kind of a weird feeling.
I've seem to have grown accustomed to change and endings and beginnings. But something about this ending just isn't sitting right with me. I think it's because I'm not trusting in God to take care of me. As I loose one job, and partially another one for awhile, I am nervous as to how I'm going to survive. And as I dive into summer school soon I am nervous as to how I will do. I am afraid that with all of the busyness, sort of, this summer that I'm going to loose touch with a new friend and quite possibly some old ones. This summer just seems like it's not starting off on the right foot.
I've had such amazing summers since I left high school that I feel like I have unrealistic expectations of what this summer should be like. I'm afraid that i'm going to be disappointed. But I know that I shouldn't be because God has a perfect summer for me in mind, whether or not it's what I think it should be.
Maybe this summer I need to focus on the little things. The past few summers have had a lot of big things in them to keep me entertained and happy. But maybe this summer wont be like that. It'll be all the little things this summer that truly make it count.
I just wish that I could get this, well...almost...sadness that summer is here, out of my mind.
I think i'm looking forward too much to the fall that i'm wishing away my summer. That I so badly want some things to happen that i'm willing to skip over other things just so that it might happen. And that's not a good way to start the next few months.
I need to learn to be content, but not at the same time.
Maybe, some good old Jesus time will help me to change my attitude toward this all.
Only through Christ can I do this.
5.13.2010
Hey there old friend.
Well it has been nearly a month and a half since my last post.
Funny how life catches up with us and yet we barely even notice as it passes us by.
I'm sitting here on my couch in a rather reflective mood.
Reflecting on my day, my week, my semester.
And I have to say, I am torn as to what I should feel. Part of me is disappointed, while the other part is really happy.
This semester has been an interesting one.
I've really grown a lot. But not in the most important way I should be growing.
I've grown out of my shell and blossomed into something new. But I wish that I could say that I blossomed into being a more fully devoted follower of Christ.
I'll be honest, most of this semester I put God on the back burner of my life. Only to call upon Him when I needed him. I'm reminded of the group on facebook, "Oh hi, I only exist when you need something from me." Well that's how I've been treating God. Only running to Him when I want or need something.
But what shocks me the most is that even though I don't pay attention to God, he still pays attention to me, and blesses me. He's placed some pretty great people in my life, and back in my life, this semester. And I am so thankful for that. I'm thankful for the opportunities he's given me to glorify Him. Even though at times I have completely let him down.
As I look ahead to this summer I have a lot of hopes and dreams of what it might be like. But God likes to surprise me so I'm trying to not get my hopes up too much. I really just want to go with the flow of things so that I might be able to avoid disappointment and possible heartache.
I feel like things are really going to change a lot this summer. Jobs, friendships, relationships, family, school.
I know all those things are always changing. But for some reason I really feel that there is going to be a big change in all of them. I just hope I'm prepared for what could possibly happen.
Funny how life catches up with us and yet we barely even notice as it passes us by.
I'm sitting here on my couch in a rather reflective mood.
Reflecting on my day, my week, my semester.
And I have to say, I am torn as to what I should feel. Part of me is disappointed, while the other part is really happy.
This semester has been an interesting one.
I've really grown a lot. But not in the most important way I should be growing.
I've grown out of my shell and blossomed into something new. But I wish that I could say that I blossomed into being a more fully devoted follower of Christ.
I'll be honest, most of this semester I put God on the back burner of my life. Only to call upon Him when I needed him. I'm reminded of the group on facebook, "Oh hi, I only exist when you need something from me." Well that's how I've been treating God. Only running to Him when I want or need something.
But what shocks me the most is that even though I don't pay attention to God, he still pays attention to me, and blesses me. He's placed some pretty great people in my life, and back in my life, this semester. And I am so thankful for that. I'm thankful for the opportunities he's given me to glorify Him. Even though at times I have completely let him down.
As I look ahead to this summer I have a lot of hopes and dreams of what it might be like. But God likes to surprise me so I'm trying to not get my hopes up too much. I really just want to go with the flow of things so that I might be able to avoid disappointment and possible heartache.
I feel like things are really going to change a lot this summer. Jobs, friendships, relationships, family, school.
I know all those things are always changing. But for some reason I really feel that there is going to be a big change in all of them. I just hope I'm prepared for what could possibly happen.
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