Hey there old friend.

Well it has been nearly a month and a half since my last post.
Funny how life catches up with us and yet we barely even notice as it passes us by.

I'm sitting here on my couch in a rather reflective mood.
Reflecting on my day, my week, my semester.

And I have to say, I am torn as to what I should feel. Part of me is disappointed, while the other part is really happy.

This semester has been an interesting one.
I've really grown a lot. But not in the most important way I should be growing.
I've grown out of my shell and blossomed into something new. But I wish that I could say that I blossomed into being a more fully devoted follower of Christ.
I'll be honest, most of this semester I put God on the back burner of my life. Only to call upon Him when I needed him. I'm reminded of the group on facebook, "Oh hi, I only exist when you need something from me." Well that's how I've been treating God. Only running to Him when I want or need something.
But what shocks me the most is that even though I don't pay attention to God, he still pays attention to me, and blesses me. He's placed some pretty great people in my life, and back in my life, this semester. And I am so thankful for that. I'm thankful for the opportunities he's given me to glorify Him. Even though at times I have completely let him down.

As I look ahead to this summer I have a lot of hopes and dreams of what it might be like. But God likes to surprise me so I'm trying to not get my hopes up too much. I really just want to go with the flow of things so that I might be able to avoid disappointment and possible heartache.

I feel like things are really going to change a lot this summer. Jobs, friendships, relationships, family, school.
I know all those things are always changing. But for some reason I really feel that there is going to be a big change in all of them. I just hope I'm prepared for what could possibly happen.